Heart's keeping me up again. It seems like the more I try to move on, the harder it gets. I've tried distracting myself, throwing myself into my studies, exercising until my muscles hurt more than my heart. But there are these moments, and there seem to be so many of them lately, that I see him in everything around me. He's moved on and I was happy for him until it started feeling like he was trying a little too hard to prove that he's happier now, while at the same time actively avoiding me. It hurts. A lot. I tried making friends with them both and he was totally against it. I try to take the higher road and just let them say and do what they want, knowing that they want me to disappear. But somehow even when I am doing my best to stay out of their way and just keep my pain to myself, I hear that they had another very public fight that in someway, I am the reason for. Sometimes I just want to disappear myself and just get away. I've been waiting on UB to respond to my application, just trying to focus on moving up there this Fall, but even that doesn't seem soon enough. None of it makes sense and I know it doesn't really matter if it makes sense to me.
My heart is breaking and I feel so alone in all of this.
Trying to live and love,
With a heart that can't be broken,
Is like trying to see the light with eyes that can't be opened.
Yeah, we both carry baggage,
We picked up on our way, so if you love me do it gently,
And I will do the same.
We may shine, we may shatter,
We may be picking up the pieces here on after,
We are fragile, we are human,
We are shaped by the light we let through us,
We break fast, cause we are glass.
Cause we are glass.
I'll let you look inside me, through the stains and through the cracks,
And in the darkness of this moment,
You see the good and bad.
But try not to judge me, 'cause we've walked down different paths,
But it brought us here together, so I won't take that back.
We may shine, we may shatter,
We may be picking up the pieces here on after,
We are fragile, we are human,
We are shaped by the light we let through us,
We break fast, cause we are glass.
We might be oil and water, this could be a big mistake,
We might burn like gasoline and fire,
It's a chance we'll have to take.
We may shine, we may shatter,
We may be picking up the pieces here on after,
We are fragile, we are human,
And we are shaped by the light we let through us,
We break fast, cause we are glass.
We are glass.
