I have a date!!!!

Yes. That's right, an actual date! AND it's with a really great/VERY handsome man. Can you tell I am giddy and smiling from ear to ear? I've been trying not to get my hopes up or let myself like him too much because I'm still guarded, but he has been asking for over a week and he really proved himself Saturday night. He came in to the bar during my shift and really made my night better after a crappy night (my boss is an ass and I stood up to him and got fired for it).

This post is already making me wish I would've written more this past week because now it's coming out as a jumbled mess... Plus, it's so much easier to write when I'm not so hyper.

To be continued...

Can I trust you with my heart

If we're all lonely people in this world looking to love and be loved, then why is it so hard to find someone you can trust with your heart? Is this just a world full of jaded people who really believe it's better to hurt that be hurt? It seems that every time I find someone who I like enough to let into my heart, they either pull away or hurt me. I'm fighting like hell to keep from being jaded and I'm trying to take every blow as an opportunity to grow stronger. But when it comes down to it, I'm standing in a hole clawing at the dirt to climb out and though I can see the blue skies above, sometimes I just get tired and want to give up.

When did guys stop making an effort?

When did it become acceptable for guys to hit on girls with a straight to the point "let's have sex"? The best part is when they respond to your "no" with a long story about how they're looking for a good girl to start a relationship with... REALLY?! How dumb do you think I am? You've not only insulted my integrity but now you've insulted my intelligence. I've never been one to want the princess treatment, but a little bit of effort would be nice. Save the cheap pick-up lines for the street walkers and strippers, they will never work on this girl.