The heart wants what the heart wants...

Started talking to the ex again last week. It's amazing how three people can experience the exact same moment together and walk away with 3 totally different takes on what happened. And all this time it was pride that was to blame. My pride that was hurt, his pride that he was "defending", our pride that kept us mad and from talking... I let myself spend the night with him this weekend for my own selfishness and I'm sure that was his reasoning, too. There is just this chemistry between us that makes it so hard to be around each other and not be close. We stayed up talking about everything from politics to my questioning marriage and commitment. When we are spending time together, it's always so easy... so comfortable (aside from the sexual tension) and we both open up in ways that each of us struggle with in any other interaction. I don't know what is next or really even how I will feel if he starts dating someone new, all I know is that I am happy to have my friend back.