Having patience is not the same as being patient. I am absolutely horrible at waiting for anything. Especially when I am excited. I like having a plan and knowing what to expect, but I also feel that when you commit to doing something at a certain time, you should be there on time. Today is the day of my big date. I have been anxiously waiting for this day for awhile now and now that it is here, I am on edge and feeling pretty vulnerable because as much as I don't want to get my hopes up, it's been kind of hard not to... plus, this whole butterflies in the stomach thing is not making my wait any easier. I have no idea what to expect as far as where we are going, what we are doing, or really even when... I don't like being so in the dark. It makes me feel vulnerable. Like, since there is no official plan, there is a higher likelihood of something getting in the way of it actually happening.
I also worry that somehow it won't feel right or the same when we are actually hanging out together on this date. We've had great conversations face to face before and everything has gone great so far, but I guess it's just the part of me that is protecting my heart... my brain forewarning my heart that there is a high risk involved and there is a good chance of it not working out.
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