The one thing I miss most about being in a relationship is the moments when I could just let my guard down and relax. Sometimes I think that maybe the part of me that misses this is the part of me that is second guessing my initial feelings (or lack there of) for the guy that is starting to make it clear that he actually has feelings for me. That was a mouth full... and I am not really in the mood to reword it... so let me just say this: I feel very adamant about not using names in my blogs, but it is really hard to keep things clear about who I am referring to without using a name. I guess I'll just have to start assigning nicknames.
I have been so crazy busy lately that I have been fighting off exhaustion simply because I don't have time for it. I've been getting these headaches lately and trying with all my might to just do whatever I can to deal with them and push on, but I'm starting to realize that there are too many things going on around me that are adding to the headache situation that I shouldn't really have to put up with... My sister, her boyfriend, and my niece recently moved in to save money. They both smoke and know they shouldn't be doing it in the house, but they stand by a window and blow it out (still manages to get that nasty smell in my room). And my niece, I love her to pieces, but she wakes up crying multiple times a night, which startles me awake making it hard to go back to sleep and when I finally do, she wakes up again. So I've resulted to taking sleeping pills at night and 5-hour energy in the morning. I spend most of my day on campus between classes, labs, and just simply a place to be able to focus... I come home, eat, study some more, and go to bed unless I work that night.
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