Day 7 and wondering if this is it

Should probably be sleeping right now. Been sick the last few days. This has allowed me some much needed sleep and downtime, but has also given me too much free time to over think and over analyze my life's questions.

Wondering if I'm being to patient with the man I'm in love with. We've been making these baby steps towards... well, not sure if we're both aiming for the same thing. A little back story might help clarify my reasoning for being patient:

We met about a year ago and had instant attraction. Things moved fast... day one: we met. day two: date 1. day 3: date 2. day 4: I met his whole family and we went camping. day 8: we became an official couple.... month 1: good... and like the mature scarred heart that I am, I kept my feet firmly on the ground and just had fun. Month 2: things were going great... feet still firmly planted. Much time spent together, very little apart. Month 3: Things couldn't be better... until they weren't. He became distant, I confronted him about it, we broke up. Months 4-7: we saw each other about once a month and things (in those brief moments) felt like it never ended. Month 5: We decided to just be friends, as in friends who don't have sex and kiss and hang out naked... Month 6-8: A lot of breaking the friends only rule. Month 8: Agreed that the whole friends only thing wasn't working... lots more sex. Currently in month 12 and we've spent at least on night a week together since the beginning of month 8.

We are very close and talk a lot about what possibly went wrong the first go round and try to figure out what the hell this is without it getting to deep. I tend to over analyze, so I've spend many moments thinking this through and my theory is this: We got too close too soon. Just when I started to fall in love even with my feet firmly planted on the ground, he pulled away... whether it was too much too soon or too much that he wasn't ready to feel, I may never know.

I want more. I want to know that he is mine and feels this way about me. But it's like he is afraid to admit or allow himself to fall for me. I don't really have time for a relationship, (I'm going to school 5 days a week and driving an hour each way to get there, plus working long bartending shifts) and neither does he (he works evenings/nights, is a volunteer fireman (a lot of fires this time of year) and he hunts). So we have this agreement... frequency stays about once a week. No daily contact necessary, no family functions, no relationship rules... with the exception of intimate relations... as in we are exclusive.

So here I am day 7 since I last saw him (and there was no sex involved) and I'm wondering if this is the time he stops coming over or if I'm just missing him and being paranoid due to too much time on my hands to think and being hurt before.