Sleep. Yep, something I should be doing, but I'm not. Last night he came into the bar with another girl. It wasn't just that he was out with another girl, but that of all bars to take her to, he chose mine... mine on the busiest night of the year when I am bartending. On top of that, he proceeded to yell out "fuck you, fuck you, fuck you" to me over the crowd and in front of everyone. It pissed a lot of people off that he was being such an ass... Not sure what happened there... so out of character for him. In any case, there is no excuse for being such a disrespectful ass to me and to go out of his way to hurt me like that. I'm done.
I'm pissed at him enough to get through the sadness, but I am mentally and physically exhausted. Slept for 2 hours last night before waking up and not being able to sleep. Haven't had much to eat either.
Tried going on a casual online dating site for a simple distraction and I think I made the guy start falling for me, which is not good. It is super premature, but it is also nothing that I am seriously considering right now.
Need sleep, back hurts... I did meet a guy last night at the bar... he saw the whole thing go down and was there Friday night to see the lovey-dovey part of it, so he took that as his que to hit on me. It was nice having the distraction and miner payback... or at least it highlighted the fact that being able to flirt back is pretty freeing.
Don't know if anyone actually reads these posts... but sorry for the spotty thought process, just tired.
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