"The woman in me..."

I'm not always strong
And sometimes I'm even wrong
But I win when I choose
And I can't stand to lose
But I can't always be
The rock that you see
When the nights get too long
And I just can't go on

The woman in me
Needs you to be
The man in my arms
To hold tenderly
Cause I'm a woman in love
And it's you I run to
Yeah the woman in me
Needs the man in you

When the world wants too much
And it feels cold and out of touch
It's a beautiful place
When you kiss my face
-Shania Twain

Song's been stuck in my head... probably because I keep listening to it. I told him once that what I really want in a relationship is to be able to come home from the world that expects me to be the strong woman that I am and to just be able to fall into his arms (or someone's arms). To just be able to let down my guards and feel like it's okay to cry... to be able to breathe even if only for a moment, just long enough to catch my breath. I believe this song really conveys that message. The message that I am getting is that he is not ready or not willing to be that man for me right now.

So tonight I am drinking wine, a bottle should do it, but I bought two just in case. Not sad, just contemplative. Just in case you are wondering Bully Hill's Sweet Walter Rose.